I couldn't be more excited about the process so far.
I love the cast and especially love our director. The best feeling in theater is when you trust someone to do their job well and put on an amazing show that translates well and offers an array of emotions while really telling a story.
He's super smart and I trust his directorial judgement. It's going to be an awesome show.
Another thing that I love about the process, is that after every rehearsal we all talk about how it went and how we felt about it.
We did our first run of the whole show tonight, choreography and blocking... Most of us without scripts in hand. These rehearsals are usually frustrating and give you a good idea of the "soft spots" in the show. It's usually a rough time for me internally as an actor because I start to doubt myself and the work I've done... As someone who is tough on myself, it's a true test of my memory.
Tonight I had a fun revelation-- I had a chance to take stock in myself and noticed a little change.
I wasn't once frustrated with myself.
And come to think of it, I haven't been frustrated the whole process. Maybe it's because I feel safe, good environment, and I trust my cast and director...
All true... But I think it's something bigger. A coming of age, and understanding that I'm human. That I'll make mistakes and forget... But I don't have to make myself sick about it. I have been having so much fun with the whole process, and Ive been able to make bold choices and do silly things that I don't usually get to do in the roles I get cast as.
I hope that the positivity I feel doing this show translates to the audiences that get to see it. And that, even without being able to put a finger on it, herds of children will be able to see that they can be themselves, freely, with no judgement and without apology in the internal battle against their own thoughts and puts downs. You don't have to be your own worst enemy. If you can be on your side, it opens up the possibilities to expand your personality and be more accessible to others.
I love the things I get to learn about myself through acting. What an awesome opportunity.
